Bravely She Blogs
Welcome to Bravely She Blogs! Sharing my experiences around living with depression is a huge step for me.
Before my diagnosis, I couldn’t have been happier. I was working in a career I loved, having recently qualified as a personal trainer. Together with my family, we achieved our dream of moving and living abroad. Everything appeared to be going so well.
But beneath the surface things weren’t going so well for me. I was struggling to come to terms with unresolved childhood trauma. Slowly my mental health began to unravel, leading to a complete breakdown and diagnosis of clinical depression.
As the depression took hold, I watched my former self slip away. I’ve since learned depression is an illness that tears away at the heart’s longing. Things that once made me feel happy, free and vibrantly alive had morphed into a feeling of immense grief and guilt.
To this day my mind keeps cycling around the events leading up to my diagnosis. I keep thinking and over-thinking what I could have done, how I could have done things differently. But depression is not something you can negotiate with, it just comes. The biggest challenge so far is accepting the fact depression is not my fault.
When I started this blog I realized the former me isn’t gone, she’s right here with me. She’s tired though, completely exhausted. Every time I grieve her, she wants to shake me awake to the fact she is still here. She wants to tell me that while depression has smothered her optimism and crushed her natural exuberance, she is still very much alive.
Here on the blog I give her a voice. Together we explore the challenges and triumphs, as we discover new ways to break through depression overwhelm. Here we find ways to slay depression, while respecting there is no cure-all for this disease.
Some days slaying depression means crawling out of bed when every limb in your body feels ridiculously weak and heavy. But the truth is, every step in this journey matters.
Sometimes your best efforts are not seen by those looking into your world. But I want you to know how incredibly brave you are.
Always remember: depression does not define you. You are stronger than you think you are and every step you take in this journey reflects your true strength.
IMPORTANT PLEASE READ: While I share my personal experiences with depression, I am not a therapist or health professional. Bravely She Blogs is not intended as medical or therapeutic advice. For immediate help please call one of the support lines below.
Depression Support Lines
Mind infoline on 0300 123 3393 (9am to 6pm, Monday to Friday)
Samaritans on 116 123 (UK), 116 123 (ROI) for confidential support
If you are based in the US, you can call the Crisis Call Center at 1-800-273-8255 at any time of the day